Are you waiting for something to be proud of yourself? Then what are you waiting for? Achieving your goals?
Most people are most likely doing the same thing, having the same problem some time in life regarding self esteem and self confidence. Including me!
We thing that what we do is not good enough and that "everyone" else is much better than wea are - at whatever we attempt. Why do we think that? It is at the moment we recognize that we have done something good, something worthwhil, something of value, that we build of self esteem. And if we don't acknowledge our accomplishments and boost our self esteem, but just ignoring our results and the value we provide,we never really grow.
There is a saying that is "Whatever that is not growing, is dying."
Start living your life. Boost your self esteem. Be proud of yourself for every step on the way! Make your life magical!